Friday, December 30, 2016

if not now, when?

Life is short.  Are you living it?  Perhaps not.  Maybe you haven't got the guts.  But when you are old and still unhappy, remember its no one's fault but your own.  Just do it.

Thursday, December 29, 2016

Moving on

Love, God, the Universe.  Me...

How do I relate?  Who is God?  Does God exist?  Where does the idea of God come from?  Why is it such a common thought in the human mind?

As human beings we understand that there are many things that are beyond our comprehension.  Life is difficult.  Complicated at times. 

We look to a god.  We understand that its ok to not understand what is happening in this world.  We understand that we have a small role in the Universe, in Time.  With the idea of God we accept that many things are beyond our comprehension.

Things don' have to be logical with God.  We want things to make sense.  Its hard for us to imagine things are just random.  Its hard for us to imagine that things do not have a deeper meaning.  Its why we believe in God.

I do not know if a God exists or if he cares about me or anyone.  But when my life is upside down.  Believing in one is a comforting thing.

God Bless,


Monday, December 26, 2016

alternate realities

One thing I think about frequently is alternate realities.  What if we had made different choices in our lives? Where would we be?  How would we be different?  Who would we be? 

What if I had decided to live in another part of the world?
What if I had studied a different subject in school?
What if I had never had a child?
What if I had lived more selfishly?
What if I made different decisions with the relationships?
What if I had a different personality?

How would my life be different?  Where would I be?  Would I be happier?  What is happiness and how important is it?  Why do we often sacrifice our happiness for other people's?  Why cant we all just be selfish?  Wouldn't this make the world a fairer place?

Life could easily have gone dramatically different in countless ways.  One little decision here, one different perspective there.  The tricky thing about life is although we can always make a change, we can never undo what we have done.  Fortunatly, we aren't often held to decisions we make for eternity because we can always modify afterwards.  But make no mistake, everything we do now affects the future in an interpersonal world.   The past is written. The present is the gift of choice and is subject to change and open to interpretation. The future is at stake.

There is no reset button.   The future is in your hands.  Today.

Sunday, December 25, 2016

making choices

How do we make difficult choices in life?  Iv found that the best way is to face difficult choices with courage and honesty at all times even when very hard.

We also need to look out for ourselves since no one else will take care of us like we can.  No one knows our real circumstances in life like we do.  Thus, no one is better qualified to make your difficult choices for you.  But in order to trust our choices as being the good one, the fair one, the right one, we must be as honest as humanly possible with those around us who are affected by our choices as much as we are honest with ourselves.

Merry Christmas 2016


Saturday, December 24, 2016

hard times in life, its normal

Having hard times in life, its normal.  Whats hard today might look like a cakewalk tomorrow. 

But at the same time, the terrible things you went through in the past can give you comfort that you can get through tough things today.  Im reflecting on some of the really hard stuff Iv had to go through.

These things give me somewhat of a foundation of strength to move on.  I can move on and I will get through this and so will the people I care about.  Iv been through some bad stuff, this is just another thing to survive.

Im thankful for the things I haven't yet lost.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

being religious

But I learned from my mistakes
Try hard to respect people for what they believing in
But if you spit on my fucking grave
And wish me Hell then I wish you well
I'mma send you straight up to my best friend

The next time someone wishes you to hell for something, we can wish them well and leave them in their own arrogance.  Attention hyper religious people, just because you believe you are hyper close to a higher power doesn't make it so.  It just means you have a huge ego and a strong emotional connection to a belief .  I respect your belief but it means nothing if you lack basic respect and honor for other people.

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

My New lifetime daily challenge

Bonjour and Hello internet world.  Recently my brother died and its making me think about things in another perspective.  I watched a video about doing 30 day challenges and when I got to thinking about my own life, I got to thinking about my legacy. 

What is my legacy going to be?  What will people think about me when I die.  Will they ever have known me?  The real me?  How comfortable am I with sharing my thoughts with the public world?   

To be honest, I often question my own thoughts and beliefs and I wonder what it is I really believe.  But Id like my son and those who know me to know something about me, the real me.  Thats why Im committing to writing something every day for the rest of my life.  If I die, at least my son can read some things I wrote. 

Normally, doing anything for every day for the rest of my life sounds like a big task.  But Im not putting a word count to this goal.  Perhaps I will write a single sentence certain days.  Perhaps I will write pages on other days.  But Id like to talk about something each day.

I find my ideas become clear when I write.  There is something about writing that clears my thinking.  Writing takes longer then talking and this speed change seems to do something to my creative processes and my logical thinking.  I also find it strangely therapeutic in a strange way.

For my first post Id like to simple express the importance of love.  I feel like love is important and perhaps the strange phrase "God is Love".  Perhaps it is true.

Perhaps God is love, but just because God is love, doesnt mean we always are as people.   We humans demand some level of respect from each other, this is why love often isnt enough in many different kinds of relationships.  Its not enough to just love someone, we expect respect. If none is present, it is hard to show the love we would have for them which I believe is the natural state.  When we show no respect to others by harming them or disrespecting them, most people respond by denying this person love.   I believe love always exists and deep down, subconsciously, is still there, but we deny the expression of it.

I believe love is the original condition of the human spirit.  But when we are hurt by someone, we deny this person the expression of love.  When we deny love to someone, this person becomes disrespected themselves on some level and after this point, the process becomes endless. 

Conclusion, try to respect others.  No one is perfect, but respect is crucial.  Because if none is shown the relationship may as well be dead.

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

“If you are pained by external things, it is not they that disturb you,
but your own judgement of them.
And it is in your power to wipe out that judgement now.”
― Marcus Aurelius
Mathematics, if we travel half way twice we should get there.

But when we travel halfway to halfway, we must divide that by halfway again by another halfway, the numbers never end.  In theory, we should never arrive to the final destination.

The past, present, and future flow into each other. Time is just a concept for our minds.  The reality is we are all a part of the same tableau. 
Suppose we observe that the lawn is wet. If it rained last night, then it would be unsurprising that the lawn is wet. Therefore, by abductive reasoning, the possibility that it rained last night is reasonable, although Peirce did not remain convinced that a single logical form covers all abduction.[9] Some other process could have also resulted in a wet lawn, such as dew or lawn sprinklers. Consequently, abducing that it rained last night from the observation of a wet lawn can lead to a false conclusion.

#abductive reasoning Source above wikipedia

"All reason and experience may point to one "fact" but this fact may in fact be fiction"

Its hard to believe in the magic of possibility.  But choosing not to comes with real consequences.  Like the consequences of never having tried, never giving yourself a chance, and never working for something that is worth your effort. 

You might never achieve what you set out to. But don't let your failure happen because you didn't believe.

"Like a sword that cuts, but cannot cut itself; Like an eye that sees, but cannot see itself. The illusion of the split comes from the mind's attempt to be both itself and its idea of itself, from a fatal confusion of fact with symbol."--Alan Watts (The Way of Zen)

“If you want to be a slave in life, then continue going around asking others to do for you. They will oblige, but you will find the price is your choices, your freedom, your life itself. They will do for you, and as a result you will be in bondage to them forever, having given your identity away for a paltry price. Then, and only then, you will be a nobody, a slave, because you yourself and nobody else made it so.”
― Terry Goodkind,

When we suffer an injustice our true self is not harmed. When we commit an injustice we are harming our true self.  It is better to suffer injustice then to commit it.

Evil is simply ignorance.  Evil doing always rest upon a false estimate of goods attained.  Guilt always outweighs the supposed gains.

Scientist: It is not your job to tell me what to do. It is your job to tell me what you know and how you know it. I am allowed to question you and your methods, that is what science is about. Science is not suppose to be a new religion. Thank you.